Retrospect

Sesuai judulnya,, aku mencoba kembali mengingat aku yang dulu. Masa kecilku yang membuatku menjadi rindu. Masa remajaku yang membuatku menjadi sedih, dan transisi kedewasaanku yang mungkin hingga kini masih proses (kurasa).
Kini aku telah selesai dengan "kewajiban" yang aku ambil. The door so closer, and i can't turn back anymore. The key's in my hand. Must i open it?! I'm scare,, what hapenned in back of the door? Itu rahasia Tuhan yang akan kujalani, as i'm still breathe in this life. One song "Andai aku telah dewasa" by sherina, just being memorize what i'm when childhood. Im adult now,, a adult who have kids heart. Or a kid who learning a hard world to be adult?!
Aku tidak ingin, ataupun dianggap "sok bijak". It's not really i'm... Aku ingin tetap dikenal sebagai aku. Aku yang sederhana, kurasa... pantaskah aku menilai diriku sendiri? Egois? Sombong?! Aku hanya manusia biasa.
And now,, should i thinking, respect, and responsible for other or just my self?! Can they respect with my choices,, my life choices??

BECAUSE THE PURPOSE OF MY LIFE  IS JUST BE GRATEFUL, AND LIFE WITH PEOPLE WHOSE LOVE ME

i wanna be a rich girl, but don't wanna be selfish girl....

i wanna be a success woman, but don't wanna be stubborn woman....

i wanna be a great mother for my lovely family, but don't wanna be busy mother and forget her family...

i wanna spent my life with someone whose love me, happy with my great kids, and die with peace in around people who knows and remember me in their life...

 Amin